Monday, September 22, 2025

22 September 2025

“Cyberpunk” has been much on my mind lately, or more accurately, in my face. 

I’ve received the usual batch of fall semester queries from students writing papers, a few more requests from various publishers seeking reprint and/or translation rights—one of which was worth taking seriously, so I did, and I’ll have more to say about that book when we get closer to the publication date—and one request from an incredibly dedicated fan who had turned up a nice clean copy of the November 1983 issue of Amazing Stories and wanted me to sign it, specifically in the white space at the top of page 94.

Oh. That means I have to look at page 94 again.

Here, for your reference, is what the top of page 94 looks like. Note the introduction that George Scithers wrote more than 40 years ago for the original magazine publication of the story. Please read it closely.


And now, the story that some of you have heard or read before, but most probably have not. 

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I no longer remember the name of the con. It was somewhere around 35 years ago and I want to say it was a WorldCon, but really don’t remember. What I do remember is that I was with a bunch of other mid-list, mid-life, and mid-career pros, we were in the professional SF/F writer’s natural habitat—the hotel bar—and we were having just a great old time, drinking heavily and swapping divorce horror stories. My first wife, Nancy, had just kicked me out, changed the locks, and filed for separation, and to be honest, I deserved it. In those days I was Bruce Bethke, Semi-Famous Science Fiction Writer, and I was a real jerk.

What struck me at the time was how casually everyone there took the news. It was as if it was a rite of passage, or an occupational requirement, or perhaps even a milestone on the road to success. “Okay, you’ve just sold your fifth novel. Time for your first divorce.” “Ha ha, SFWA: we put the fun in dysfunctional!” Ben Bova gave me a signed copy of his book, Survival Guide for the Suddenly Single. The then-editor of the SFWA Bulletin asked me to write an article on how to protect your intellectual property rights in a divorce. A certain editor who shall remain nameless, assuming I was broke and desperate for cash, tried to talk me into a book deal, ghostwriting for a certain well-known media personality who had a burning desire to see his name on the cover of a science fiction novel but no actual time to write, knowledge of writing, or discernible writing talent. It was a wonderful evening of back-slapping camaraderie.

Later, when I sobered up, it began to disturb me. It wasn’t just that being a writer seemed to be toxic to marriage and family: it was how readily the writers I knew (and at the time, being on the SFWA board of directors, I knew hundreds of successful writers) accepted this toxicity. I realized I could count on my fingers all the writers I knew who had intact first marriages and functional families. By and large my peers were women whose cats were their surrogate children; women who had had one or two children with male gametes supplied by one or more long-gone donors; men who would never get married and father children because they just didn’t swing that way; or worst of all, really successful male writers who had been married, but were now perfectly content to let their children be raised by their ex-wife’s next man. Or woman. Or whatever.

That’s when it struck me. The problem wasn’t that being a writer is somehow toxic to marriage and family. It was a matter of selection bias. My peer group was composed of divorced SF/F writers because we were all, every one of us, people who believed it was more important to our careers for us to be there, at that con, drinking with our fellow writers and editors in a hotel bar, than at home with our wives and families.

This, in turn, explained a nascent trend I at first thought I was only imagining I was seeing. The world of SF/F—at least, the social, con-going, dedicated fandom part of it—was not merely family-neutral, but in the process of turning actively family-hostile. And the problem wasn’t just with passing trends in genre fiction, or the idiosyncrasies of the current batch of editors who bought it, or the greedy bastard publishers who printed it. The problem was the writers.

¤


It was too late to save my first marriage. The best I could hope for was to try to have a good post-marriage for the sake of my daughters. Later I remarried, and added a step-son and another son to the family. I worked—really worked—at being a good husband and father, and quit going to cons, unless I could go with my family. The last major con we went to was Dragon Con, and we went as a family.

Emily would have loved Dragon Con. She grew up to be a costumer, a crafter, and a devoted fan of all things Harry Potter. We lost Emily this week, 16 years ago, in late September of 2009—suddenly, from a natural cause that was undiagnosed, unpredictable, unpreventable, and apparently had been waiting years for the opportunity to kill her.

People often ask why I don’t try to put together a complete collection of all my short stories from the 1980s and 1990s. That photo at the top of this column is the reason. Whenever I try to do it, I get as far as the introduction George Scithers wrote for the original magazine publication of “Cyberpunk” and then grind to a stop. Other people look at my publication credits and see a bunch of short stories, some of them pretty good, some Nebula-nominated, some even world famous. 

What I see is all the time I stole from my daughters’ childhoods and all the damage I did to my first marriage, chasing the mirage of being Bruce Bethke, Semi-Famous Science Fiction Writer.

¤


A few people know that in 2010, when we went to Dragon Con, it was between the time Karen (my second wife) was diagnosed with breast cancer and the first round of what turned into a twelve-year odyssey of surgery, chemotherapy, radiation treatments, and then more of the same. Karen beat the odds, I guess. When she was first diagnosed she was told to expect she had two more years to live; perhaps five, tops. She fought hard against it, and survived for twelve.

What even fewer people know is that in December of 2012 my first wife, Nancy, was diagnosed with renal cell carcinoma. After a five-and-a-half year battle, she left this world in August of 2018.

For those of you who ask why I don’t go to WorldCon anymore or why I really don’t give a flying fig about any of the many cat-fights and pissing contests that are forever going on inside the world of SF/F writing and fandom: seriously, are you kidding? You think that stuff is important?

¤


Forty-two years later, we know some of the answers to the questions George Scithers posed in his introduction to “Cyberpunk.” Nancy and Emily now sleep for eternity, side-by-side in a small churchyard cemetery in rural Minnesota.

As for me? You can’t fix yesterday. But you can learn from experience, and try to pass on what you have learned.

This was my experience. Learn from it.




Monday, September 8, 2025

“Apollo 13: The Remake” • by S. Travis Brown


TO:     ALL HANDS

FROM:   S. Travis Brown
        CEO, Auteurs sans Honte ni Fierté, Intl.
        Hollywood, CA  90067

STATUS: URGENT!

RE:     Apollo 13: The Remake


Okay folks, I just watched a movie called Apollo 13: Survival, on Netflix. This 2024 documentary about the 1970 Apollo XIII disaster, which was pieced together from archive footage and rarely seen interviews with the participants, is pretty darn tense and captivating, right up to the final frames. What an epic story of survival! What a property it would make! And it’s all public domain, too! No agents to deal with or rights to buy!

But the more I think about it, the more I realize it has some pretty serious problems we’ll need to address before we can move forward. Good core concept, yes, but there’s a lot of room for improvement. And before anyone whines, “But that’s not historically accurate!” I have just one word for you: Hamilton.

Now, here’s my thinking. 

First off, the Apollo 13 crew is not balanced. It needs to consist of a handsome young Black male hotshot Lunar Module Pilot (LMP) who’s been unfairly passed-over for promotion, a beautiful slender blonde lesbian Command Module Pilot (CMP) who tries to warn everyone about the impending disaster but is ignored because she’s a woman, and an older white guy who’s the Mission Commander (MC) because he’s old and white, but who is also the guy responsible for stupidly throwing the switch that causes the explosion that cripples the ship.

Secondly, Chief Flight Director (CFD) Gene Kranz is just all wrong, in every possible way, from the top of his brush-cut hair to the soles of his wingtip shoes. The CFD needs to be a body-positive middle-aged Black woman—I’m thinking Viola Davis, am I right?—who stomps into scenes, shouts a lot, pounds her fist on desks and tables, and motivates her team by screaming threats at them and saying things like, “Come on, people, work this problem! Give me a solution!” She’s got to treat her staff in Mission Control like they’re a bunch of minimum-wage Subway employees who would be just sitting around playing games on their computers if she wasn’t there to motivate them by shouting at them.

Third, speaking of the Mission Control staff: all those people in all those scenes were way too male and way too white. We need more women in those scenes; more Blacks, Hispanics, Indians, and Asians; at least one Russian—no wait, not Russian, better make him Ukrainian—and at least one transgender BIPOC person with a prominent speaking part who comes up with a brilliant idea at a crucial moment. Along with that, as long as we’re doing all the cutaways to the other people on the ground, what’s with this obsessive focus on Marilyn Lovell and the Lovell kids? We need a lot more cutaways to the CMP’s beautiful wife and their angelic child, anxiously waiting for word of the fate of the mission.

Hey, here’s a sidebar thought. Can we maybe get those three Black women from Hidden Figures—or they’re getting kind of old now, maybe we can get three lookalikes? Just for a cameo: say, at a crucial moment the Mission Control computer breaks down, and these three Black women step out of the shadows with legal pads in their hands and pencils tucked behind their ears, and they do the re-entry calculations in their heads. I think that’d be a real wow stand-up-and-cheer scene, don’t you?

Okay, where was I? Fourth, or is this fifth? Anyway, Nixon. You’ve got Richard Nixon in this story, and he’s completely wasted. You need at least one scene in which he’s smiling and sympathetic on TV, but then cut to him huddled in a back room with the rest of his Reichstag staff, scheming and discussing whether it will be more helpful for him in the next election if the Apollo 13 crew is killed or saved, and if killed, can they make it look like an accident?

Next, there’s no getting around this, the special effects in Apollo 13: Survival are just terrible. The movie misses so many opportunities to up the dramatic ante. When the oxygen tank in the Service Module explodes, the explosion should be louder, larger, longer, and much more colorful, with flaming crap flying everywhere, and maybe it should make the ship start tumbling, too. Then, when they slingshot around the Moon, they’re too high up: they should be skimming in so close to the surface they only make it by the skin of their teeth, and an antenna gets snapped off on a lunar peak that they just barely miss thanks to the CMP’s brilliant piloting. Finally, when they need to restart the LM engine for the Earth injection burn, it just starts, with no drama. It should fail to ignite the first couple of times, and not start until the CMP sobs, pounds her fist on the console in frustration, and gives it one more try.

Speaking of the Earth injection burn: the Apollo 13 crew members were all wearing Omega Speedmaster chronograph wristwatches. They had to time the engine burn manually and precisely, by closely watching their wristwatches. PRODUCT PLACEMENT, PEOPLE! PRODUCT PLACEMENT! Jesus, do I have to think of everything myself?

Finally, once they’ve made their last mid-course correction burn, that’s it. After that, they’re just waiting to find out if they survive. Tense, yes, but no drama. I’m thinking when they hit the atmosphere this is the perfect place for something to go horribly wrong, for the MC to freeze up, forcing the CMP to take over, and for the hotshot Black LMP to seize the controls and fly the ship in manually, wrestling with the controls and just dripping with sweat and machismo and showing off what a great big pair of mighty balls he has!

Then: happy ending. They splash down safely, the helicopters show up, we cut to them on the carrier’s deck, emerging from the capsule—only we don’t just have a bunch of Navy people standing around them, we have everybody. Think of the last scene of Independence Day. The CMP’s wife and child are there. The LMP’s husband is there. (Never reveal that your hero is gay until after his hero cred is solidly established.) The MC’s wife is there—better yet, she’s back at home, watching all this on TV with a drink in her hand and disgusted look on her face—no, wait, I’ve got it! She’s in a motel room in bed with her lover, watching all this on TV with a drink in her hand and a disgusted look on her face, saying, “Damn. I was really looking forward to being his widow.”

To sum it up: Apollo 13: Survival is a good movie. Great concept. Good story. It’s a solid “nice try.” But I think we can make the story better, and seriously, we must make it a lot better if we’re going to get Disney to green light and bankroll the remake.

Now get cracking, people! I want to see first draft script treatments on my desk by EOB Friday!

No pressure,
STB

 



On the Internet, no one knows you're a dog

Once upon a time, under another name, S. Travis Brown had a successful career as an SF/F writer, until the winds of taste changed direction and the kinds of fiction he liked to write became too hard to sell. When his own agent advised him, just before dropping him, to adopt yet another new pseudonym, preferably female this time, and to start his career over again as a writer of paranormal romance novels, he said, “[intercourse] this, I am not Doctor Who,” and went off to do other things that paid better.

Now comfortably retired, we don’t hear from him often, but when we do, we’re mostly happy to publish what he sends us. Mostly.

When asked to supply an author’s photo, he instead sent us this picture, with the explanation, “On the Internet, no one knows you’re a dog.” We considered asking him to explain his relationship to this dog, but decided it was better not to ask.

Brown has no social media presence that we know of, and says he prefers it that way. 


Monday, September 1, 2025

“Presenting Ancient Humanity” • by Ruby Dae Mellinger


While Wilma took her seat and the other students clapped, the teacher let out a low, quiet sigh, seeing that Timothy was next to give his presentation. She was sitting in the back, so nobody saw her, but she still felt bad about the involuntary reaction as soon as it happened. She did not pick favorites among her students, she reminded herself, waiting for them to quiet down. Timothy was not a bad student nor a stupid individual, and this presentation promised to be well-researched because—as he rarely let anyone forget—his father was among the leading experts on the customs and cultures of ancient humans. The reason he grated on Ms. Garlan’s nerves was because he was… well… she hated the terminology, but there was really no better phrase to describe Timothy than “a little shit.”

“Timothy,” she said, shuffling her papers, bringing to the top of the pile the outline he turned in a week before. “It is time for your presentation on…” she paused, trying to decipher his handwriting, or trying to remember what she had decided it said last time she read it. “It's time for your presentation.”

He made his way to the front of the room in silence and settled a stack of note cards on the podium before looking up and beginning. “As you have heard so far from my esteemed colleagues,” he said, feigning a stuffy aristocratic air and gesturing loftily to his classmates, “the peoples of antiquity were very strange, indeed.” When he said the word “indeed,” it had far more emphasis on it than necessary and caused a ripple of laughter to run through the class.

“Timothy, try to stay on topic,” Ms Garlan said, with a hint of warning in her glance.

“My humblest apologies, my lady,” he said, with a deep bow.

“Timothy.”

“Yes ma’am, sorry.” His smug grin clarified that it was a hollow apology, but they had been through this song and dance enough times for her to know that she should be happy to get any apology at all.

“Continue.”

“We’ve heard a lot about strange things they did, and I’d like to talk to you today about a strange thing they did with their mouths.”

When snickers and whispers began running through the students and Timothy’s grin widened, panic began to well up inside Ms. Garlan. Every year in her Ancient Humanity class, some student got their hands on a piece of information about the sexual exploits of ancient humans, and every year it haunted her classroom—an unaddressed ghost underlying their conversations which they didn’t think she knew about. This year it had been the practice of oral sex that had captivated them, and of course, it was Timothy who had dug that one up and introduced it to his fellow students.

“You see, they used their mouths for LOTS of things. Some of them involved relationships between two people—”

“Timothy!” she warned over the uproar of laughter that followed.

 “What? I was going to say ‘like talking.’”

She gave him a pointed, knowing look. He went on.

“They used their mouths for talking like we do now, but they also did this thing called ‘eating,’ because the poor, inefficient slobs couldn’t just plug-in like we do and had to get their energy from the mechanical and chemical breakdown of organic material, which they often referred to as,” he paused briefly, glancing down at his note cards, “food.”

“I know what you’re thinking,” he went on. “We already know about eating; it was a huge part of their culture and not only have we talked about it extensively in class, much of the language we still use today, being handed down from our ancestors, still reflects this infatuation. However, I wanted to talk today about a specific thing that they often ate. To demonstrate just how important food was to them, I want to demonstrate just how complicated of a process it was that they went through, to prepare this food that many of them considered simple.”

Ms. Garlan had to admit, it was actually a fairly well thought-out premise. She waited, hoping that her initial reservations would be proven to be baseless.

“We’ll start our story with a plant called…” he paused again, glancing at his notes, “Triticum aestivum. The story, however goes much further back than that. Our food-obsessed ancestors selectively bred and grew fields full of this stuff for over ten-thousand years, changing it slowly to get it to the form we are about to discuss.”

Timothy paused, and the class looked at him with large, shocked eyes. Ms. Garlan was impressed. Timothy often commanded the attention of his classmates, but it was rare that he used it for a productive purpose.

“They would pick huge amounts of this Tritic… whatever plant, then grind it up into a fine powder, and sometimes they’d even bleach it, to make it—”

“What’s a bleach?” interrupted Michael, a friend of Timothy’s who did get into trouble on occasion, but not usually without a bit of help.

“Raise your hands, please,” Ms. Garlan reminded.

“It’s a chemical used to make things look white,” answered Timothy, without even a glance towards the teacher. “Anyway, then they would mix this powdered plant with some water, sodium chloride (which they put in a lot of their food for some reason) and a few other things, like this single-celled fungus called ‘yeast.’ It was then left to sit a while so that the yeast could break down sugars and fart-out carbon dioxide.”

“What’s a fart?”

“I’m so glad you asked, Michael. A fart is—”

“Timothy, don’t you answer that question.”

“Okay Ms. Garlan.” And he actually had the nerve to wink at her before continuing. “Anyway, they’d go through all this trouble to make the stuff fluffy. They would then sprinkle it with the seeds from the… Sesamum indicum plant, then they’d put the whole thing inside a box that would heat it up a bunch, making it a very specific texture, making it dry, and killing all the yeast that they worked so hard to get in there in the first place.”

He paused here to let his glowing eyes pan over his fellow students.

“Now, you might think they’d be done at this point, but you’d be wrong. All that effort was just to make the part that goes on the outside.”

“The outside of what?” asked Wilma.

“Raise your hands, please.”

“Sorry,” replied Wilma.

“Between the pieces of post-heated plant paste, they would spread a bright red goo painstakingly made from the berry of the… Solanum lycopersicum plant, which had been mashed, mixed with a bunch more sodium-chloride, and some soluble carbohydrates, along with some other things, then heated for half a day.” Scattered mutters of astonishment could be heard around the classroom, but he talked over them, “They also sometimes included a bright yellow goo made from ground… Sinapis alba seeds that had been mixed with acid and... any guesses? That’s right, sodium chloride.”

“Why?” Michael again.

“Hands, please, Michael.”

“Just wait, it gets better. Aside from the red and yellow goop, they would put in slices of the gourd from the… Cucumis sativus plant that had been stored in weak acids with… Anethum graveolens leaves and the roots of the… Allium sativum, and that was all just extras, we haven’t even started to talk about the whole point of this food.”

More astonished mutters. Ms. Garlan had to suppress a grin. The students were really getting into this one.

“The whole point, it seems, for all the rest was as a delivery system for something, the description of which is not for the faint of heart!”

“Rein in the theatrics, please, Timothy.”

“Inside, they would put ground-up slices of ungulates!”

Cries of shock and outrage filled the room and Wilma, now horror-stricken, yelled out, “Like a giraffe?!”

“Quiet down now, kids. Timothy, a little sensitivity please.”

“I tried to warn them, but you called it ‘theatrics.’”

“They didn't really eat giraffes did they?!” asked Wilma, her little body clinking quietly as she shook.

“Wilma, feel free to step outside if you need to. Timothy, I trust you are nearing your point?” Wilma didn't move, obviously emotionally invested in whatever would come next.

“The… the lump of the… previously mentioned stuff…” he resumed with a grin, “would be burned over a fire, until it changed color and it was sometimes topped with a slice from a clump of coagulated lactation from the very same type of ungulate!”

This caused an uproar again and Wilma looked like she was going to faint.

“And they put that in their mouths?” yelled Michael.

“Settle down, now. Settle down.”

When they finally began to quiet, Timothy said, “Yes, all that effort was to gain what we get just by plugging into the wall. It really is amazing that they had time and energy enough to make us.” There were nods of agreement as he went on. “But it’s no wonder that they were so inefficient that we had to kill them all.”

Ms. Garlan smiled to herself as he made his way to his seat. Despite his antics and theatrics, it was a fairly well-done presentation, she thought, as she wrote an “A” on his outline.




Ruby Dae Mellinger is a trans woman from Monterey, California. She now lives in the San Francisco Bay Area, where she develops data tools for a tech company. Ruby holds a Master’s degree in Physics from San Diego State University and is a big fan of soups and dogs (eating the first and cuddling the latter).